i feel quite at peace now, for some strange reason. But then again, I've always been strange, haha! I guess that is what makes me... well, me! So far, my efforts in trying to be more patient and cheerful is actually working, it is now the twelveth of january, and I have not lost my temper even once for the past two weeks or so, haha! As I'm typing this,(my second entry for today, haha!) I'm actually watching spongebob. He's so cute! Haha! Damn, I better stop now before I start sounding like an over-cheerful idiot, haha!
Time: 2135
Date: 12/01/2009
thinking of euu at
5:28 AM ++
I'm back for another random post, I guess, haha. It's been a rather dull day, which is why I hate looking forward to something. Looking forward to something always slows down time, at least for me. Isn't it strange? And when I ahve nothing planned or nothing to look forward to, the time flies by so quickly, I get a whiplash from the speed it moves, haha. My sister is getting her 'O' Level results today, and I have no idea why I'm looking forward to hearing the news from her, not when I already know the outcome. Whatever it will be, I'm very confident that she will score better than me. After all, she did put in a tonne more effort than I did, haha. My score was (13/19) after the CCA bonus point was deducted, and I'm sure that she could score at least two or three points lower than that. We'll be going to Fig & Olive for dinner tonight in celebration, though technically speaking, my sister has yet to show my parents her results. But I've always been the benchmark, for some strange reason. My sister has always been compared to me, which is not fair really, because it would make her look very smart. But then again, I don't really care. I'm feeling hollow again, waiting and waiting, but I don't know what I'm waiting for. Is this the feeling you get when you wait for someone you know will never be with you? Though I'm used to this feeling, a part of me wishes that it would go away. I guess that is all for now, I'm in the middle of my engineering class. Next week is the exam for my marine engineering knowledge class, yet my lecturer is still not teaching me anything!
Time: 1350
Date: 12/01/2009
thinking of euu at
9:41 PM ++
just in case there are people who still come to view this blog, i will have to redirect you, haha. my new blog url is: www.tryinghard-fara.blogspot.com. if possible, link me from that blog, okay? thanks...
thinking of euu at
9:36 PM ++
I am currently in school right now, and it is not so bad after all. Maybe there is nothing to going to school in December after all, haha. I made a huge mountain out of a tiny anthill, haha. It's going to be the New Year soon, and my attachement is getting closer and closer as well. I also have a project due at the end of January, and I hope my groupmates and I will find a time to complete it soon. I guess that's all for now, I have too many things on my mind right now to be thinking straight, haha.
Time: 1142
Date: 29/12/2008
thinking of euu at
7:38 PM ++
This is going to be quite a short entry, I think. Currently I am too tired to think, simply because at half past four this morning, I was still awake. I think I managed to fall asleep after that, only to wake up again for ten minutes at six something before going back to sleep, and waking up again at nine. I think, if my fuzzy head is right, I only got about four an a half hours of sleep, five max. I don't think I can function anymore, and school is startig tomorrow. I might just kill myself out of depression, haha. Think that is all for now...
Time: 1450
Date: 28/12/2008
thinking of euu at
10:45 PM ++
It has been a somewhat dull week for me. Really depressing as well, because I found out that I will be starting school next Monday even though it is still December. Wow, never in my life have I ever imagined that I would be schooling during the month of December. Oh well, there is always a first time for everything. Went to Adam Rd this morning for breakfast, and ate Mee Soto. Gosh, I missed it so much, and eating that for breakfast reminded me of how much I miss the one sold in Foodcourt 2 in school. But since school will be starting on Monday, I guess all I have to do is wait another couple of days. Apart from this morning though, I have nothing much to say about the past few days, it had been that eventless. For someone with a short attention span like me, boredom can really make me feel like dying. Nobody's online either, so there is nobody to save me by having a quick chat with me. Haha, I sound so pathetic, but the truth is, I'm just too lazy to go out, because every time I go out, I have to fork out the money. Not that I'm stingy, but my sister likes to ask me for things, and when I can afford, I usually don't say no to her. As much as we fight, I always give in to her when it comes to this. Ah, that is how miserable I can be as a person, haha. Anyway, got to go now, I have run out of things to talk about, anyway...
Time: 1855
Date: 25/12/2008
thinking of euu at
2:47 AM ++
Met my aunt at Chinatown just now for a walkabout with my sister. I don't think that I have ever been there to shop before, and for some strange reason, I found the place fascinating. There were a lot of shops selling material to make clothes from, and the designs were very nice. In fact, there is this shop selling chinese brocade(I dun know how to spell, haha), and I liked about seventy five percent of the designs in that shop, haha. But then again, my taste have been very Chinese ever since I was young, so no surprise there. My aunt bought my sister and I four and a half meters of material to make 'mini kurung', which is a type of malay suit thingy(I dun know how to explain either). It was extremely nice of her to do so, because one meter of cloth is like, eighteen bucks? Times that by nine, and it cost quite a bomb, actually. But she really loved the designs, and would not take no for an answer. We tried to tell her to get them for herself, but she refused, saying that she has a lot of clothes already. Since she really liked them and so did I, actually, we(meaning my sister and I) relented in the end. That seemed to make her happy, and in the end she bought herself an orange material to make a long skirt as well. Tomorrow, my aunts and uncles from my dad's side will be coming over to our house since we live near another relative who is holding her child's wedding. At this point of time, even I don;t understand what I'm talking about, so it's a sign for me to stop for now, haha. Till next time ^_^!
Time: 2041
Date: 20/12/2008
thinking of euu at
4:33 AM ++